Let me tell you guys having an anointing that you carry on your back is not easy. Its like a different person on your shoulders, especially if you carry different anointing that arent really you. The you that you know is shy introverted with an occasional outgoing night. This anointing requires a different person whom youve had to step into so that it is carried effectively. And sometimes this anoitning is so heavy and no matter how much you need someone to notice that you need help with the load, no one sees you. They are looking for weaker people to help, not realizing that your bulging muscles are rather strained.
It gets tiring. It gets exhausting. And even though you have learned how to go to Jesus to be your strength, you still wonder if you will ever have someone comes along that gets the need and desire that you have to simply have a hand.
You date people and they never understand that as a strong woman you need a help not a pat on the back that says you are amazing. You have friends who dont understand that although you are helping others, you secretly wish someone would check on you as well.
But you know you have to be the strong one because that is who you were called to be.
Maybe one day…no Im gonna type this one into existence!!! One day a man is going to come along and see that I need help, too and Ill be able to rest these biceps.
