I have this weird thing that I have faced a lot and that is *some* people thinking that I should behave in *certain* ways not knowing I know exactly how they think I should be (they dont have to teach me lol) but I am on a beat to a different drum and cant walk with them no ways.
Imma be honest.. The main things that make me joyful and are very valuable to me as a beautiful strong woman of God are the very things that make the church mothers who dont even know they sat on a church pew so long they got in bondage uncomfortable. I guess I dont follow the fashion of ways that they have held onto for dear life.
I have a family where there are so many pastors and people in ministry that I cant even count and I love how they are. I admire them so much for who they are. But for me, I could never withhold the same value system because my perspective is so deep vast and wide with the knowledge and wisdom that only someone who has gone through the things I have could have. I am talking about the deep things of the heart that I have learned. When you are me, and you have experienced certain things from a young age, you dont judge situations the same as those that are leading for the gospel and yet dont have the ability to look through the lens that you know intimately.
Many of you have felt the uncomfortableness of being just as in love with Jesus as those around you but you come with a different perspective because you became a single mom at 14, never found your place in the church or whatever else it was… You have places that were shipwrecked at such a young age and that allowed you to relate to the scriptures in a special way and to see what really matters in life.
Just say, Im sorry. Im different.
And dont ever forget…God developed you since you were so young and everything good and bad made you the beautiful effective specimen you are.
