There are a lot of people in our world who have trouble surrendering because it means a loss of control. I can remember when many of the things I do now took so much surrender in a past season, but now its a normal part of my life.
Now there are bigger giants I am surrendering to, ones that require me to let go and literally fly like a bird where he is leading me. It requires a special trust and I feeling like either I am going to crash and burn, or he is going to catch me when I fall.
Whichever it is, I am surrender to a life that was never my own to begin with. I am surrendering to a calling that I never gave myself. I am surrendering to a lifeplan I never saw myself doing AT ALL. I never knew I would be good at it. But God took the brush from my hands and he showed me where I fit the best.
I wish I could tell you that I fit so snug that never felt the uncomfortableness to a puzzle piece that should have fit into the square but was having a little trouble. He had to mold me and as soon as Ive learned to be molded, he takes another area to make me the perfect puzzle piece to this amazing future that he has given me.
This is an uncertain future that I dont even have a name for, I just feel it with the wings of the Holy Spirit inside of me. Warning me, prompting me, giving me a small little peice of heaven to make me believe in it no matter how hard it may get.
So God I surrender to what only you deserve.
My heart.
