I gotta tell you. Not too long ago I went through something so difficult and so hard that I thought is there anything for me after this? How could anything good happen now.
I actually believe that God was leading me and letting me know that he was going to bless me. I didnt realize that the blessing was wrapped up in some of the worst warfare that I have EVER seen in my life. When I came through that warfare it was hard to dust myself off and believe that anything good could come from this.
It was hard to believe that God had anything for me after he allowed me to die in a fire that was too hard for me to escape.
It just seemed like God could have saved me from that and he could have done it a different way.
I didnt understand why he would have ever put me through all that. Especially since I had been faithful. Now I know without a doubt that I sin. But I am one of the ones who are trying. So God, why would you allow me to go into this battle?
Its hard to get up after you have failed and failed and after you have believed and experienced things falling apart so many times, to think that there even could be a new day for you.
I know what its like to wonder how in the world you are going to get out of this and how you are ever going to see God do it. It may even be easier to give up and become someone that doesnt even speak faith anymore. You are tired of not seeing the word come to pass.
This is the only thing that I have to hang onto. God gave me this back at the first of the year of 2022 and I had a woman of God give me this and even though I still dont understand what it means from time to time I bring it out and I simply hope.
I am thankful for any word I get.
Isaiah 43:19 KJV: Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.
