I wish I could say that I was all put together today. But instead while I was cleaning my house I stopped and I had a much needed sob session in my kitchen. I felt SO far behind. I started thinking about everything the Lord has been placing on my heart and I just felt like it was going to take me SO LONG To be what I needed to be.
I started wearing this little trinket everyday to remind me of all the dreams and visions that God has given me which I at one time just ignored. I also was freaked out by the fact that God actually chose me for something because of my lack of confidence. To be honest, I liked to be in the background but it always seemed like he wanted me up in the front–how rude God!
But anyways, as I was thinking about how long I have to go and how many obstacles I have in my life I was comforted by the fact that God is not slow concerning his promises. When he gave me the promise, he knew how long it would take for it to fruition. He factored in all my dumb moves, all the times I would run from him, and all the obstacles traumas and adversities I would face. But he also factored in the apointed time when I would finally get my stuff together.
No matter where you are. I mean even if you got to change your whole self to morph into what Jesus is impressing on your heart is for you..dont get discouraged. Keep going. Even if you are faced with the possibility of a HUGE tragedy, unbearable obstacles, encourage yourself in the Lord today that HE HIMSELF is going to take care of you and bring you through.
There will come a point where you will be successful and all of the dots line up, but for right now its okay to cry in your kitchen and be okay with your right-now.
