There are some warrior women that are carrying deep mantles. You have a burden that will never fully go away, it is your child to tend.
Some of us have been in non stop labor, giving birth to the miraculous. Some of us were the only ones who were willing to carry the child to term. Others aborted their mission and God could not do his work until he found someone who was gifted in the same way that you were to carry the mission to term.
I know what it’s like to see things happen that were so miraculous and to be staring at the baby that I carried and not be excited. I saw others rejoicing at the apparent change in the atmosphere, the apparent God blessing.
And yet I did not understand why I had to carry it. Why did no one else do what I did?
Why was I pushed up in a corner and made to tunnel through a pregnancy I did not plan?
Why did this mantle rest upon a person who still was working out the insecurities within herself that were like Gideon?
I know that this is not the last baby that I will carry in the spirit but it has been so big lol.
I am resting right now from a fight that took a lot of strength to win.
I have people giving me the typical advice about a fight they would have never had the courage to win. Things like you should have rested in God ..
How can you rest when you were walking through a slaughterhouse where many others were wounded? How do you know what is going on and be okay with it?
There is only one way to win some wars.
And that is to win it even if you dont rest, even if you dont eat, even if you dont have any strength, even if you have been shot, even if you have nothing left, and even if everyone left the battle.
Sometimes….it just be like that.
Ya know?
