Recently I was in prayer asking God to help me because Im in a season where I need to focus but I have been weighed down in my heart. I felt during this prayer time that I realized I am taking on responsibilities that aren’t mine. For a long time, I had shouldered them as my own. I have a trend in my life since a young age and thats taking the responsibility for things. When I am at a church that is spiritually harmful, I take the responsibility to change it. When people need help, Ill give them money and be late on my own rent.
But I have also been thinking about those that took on responsibilities that weren’t theirs. Like Martin Luther King who ended up assassinated. Like a stepfather who tried to be the father. Or the mom who tried to step in to be the absent father and broke herself doing it.
Even though we should try to prioritizing and realize when we are taking on more than we should, I also want to take time to think about those who were different.
They made the change.
They did what the majority were only complaining about but weren’t willing to put theirselves in harms way to change things.
You see the thing that God showed me was not my responsibility, it something that I have carried in prayer with him. I fasted and prayed. I believed when I didn’t have a real reason to believe but I knew who God was. Now I know that the thing is answered but he wants to take the responsibility for it and allow me to heal, become whole, and learn how to surrender each day what he gave me back to him.
Thank you JESUS for being the responsibility. Thank you for taking what I can no longer bear and restoring me for the years I sat at your side and prayed for a breakthrough that I didn’t know would actually come.
When it comes to responsibility let me ask a question that requires pondering… Responsibility implies motive. When you’re carrying a load that’s not yours and you feel pressure to contribute or even give your heart to an agenda that isn’t yours; what are you doing? That’s God’s heart too by the way. If should feel right. Your mom and the father that stepped in were not carrying you as a burden. Seems like there’s unrighteous pressure. Do you think you’re going to get to your destiny by following someone else’s? That sounds like a scripture I can’t think of right now. But these are “Rhetorical Questions”…
Are you fully “connected” to your original intended purpose? Are you giving to others the dreams that are between you and others you’re not with (roots)? There should be godliness with content most of the time. If you constantly feel like half your heart is gone or it’s fighting against you (carrying a load that isn’t yours and your lord doesn’t want you carrying it but still cares for you in stagnate place), something is wrong and your virtue is not going towards the true desires of your heart, they’re going to someone else’s.
I’ve experienced this. I’ve cared for people and imagined the most excellent things for them in the love of the lord, as I give, I see their plan in not really true. I don’t always understand. But now I do have a higher understanding. *I don’t get my value from others anymore at all and Christ is my lover. I don’t struggle with these things, because I’m better off alone with Jesus all the time. LOL!
I kinda broke out of being formal there. I love the Holy Spirit wisdom (she’s hot), council, comfort; the perfect lover!
A good test for all this is this one, and it’s not as cut and dry as most would think, it’s deeper…
When you see these videos, how do you imagine yourself and those you’re surrounding yourself with?
Which types of affirmations and settings are more appealing?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ilE82gBfjQ0
or
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7K0x2-FWBz8