Sunday night I witnessed one of the strongest deepest anointings ever at a church in Detroit Michigan.
I came up for prayer for a physical healing but when Pastor Fielder laid his hands on me. He said, I dont know who ha left you. But what I see is Jesus himself that come and stand in the gap. Gods about to put his hand on you and cause you to be able to receive the love hes trying to give you. And that is what I literally feel like God has done.
I didnt have what I probably should have gotten in this area. I had some things happened that maimed me. I fought real hard to stand up again but I fought in the wrong ways. It took me a while to realize that this was war. And it took me a while to listen, listen to an uncommon story about a girl who thought she was cursed but really she was incredibly blessed.
You see some people are going to see my life radically healed restored and whole. Some will wonder how I got here. And the only thing that I can really tell you when I get there is it was by Gods grace.
I know what the war was. I was lost in it.
I know that there was no way for me to see. My eyesight got taken.
But I also know that I asked God one night that if he truly loved me that HE would save me and no one else and he answered from that way forward in a big way.
there are parts of my story that really shouldnt have ended up as good as they are. I have a very complicated life when it comes to men but what I dont have is a life without a GOD that literally knows how to unravel complicated to make it a blessing.
He will take the places that are beyond your control. Places where you know I was too good for that to happen to me. LOL I tried too hard to end up with nothing. I know that I didnt deserve that kind of treatment. I know without a doubt Ive done been done wrong. LOL
See what I really didnt realize fully now because you see there was a time that I was just speaking what I wanted to believe with a hope in my chest…but now I know that when whoever forsakes you GOD himself will take you up and HE will set you up on a HIGH place.
Im not saying its a place of just good enough or a place of just better even though that is good too. Im saying that for some of us he will set us up on a HIGH place and we will be up there because we were asking him for it but we still wont know why we are up there.
Because we know without a shadow of a doubt that there was not one reason we are here but by Gods grace.
Yes I fasted. Yes I prayed. Yes even when I fainted I didnt give up. Yes I did it with no one. Yes I stayed faithful kinda sorta.
But really this is about his kindness and his GRACE. Because no one could have taken a girl like me and blessed her like he has if it was not for Gods amazing grace.
