I believe that God is going to put my life together in a way that only he could. And I have told myself that I would be very honest about the condition of my heart…that I am a complete mess that really needed deliverance, intense help, and had fell on a knife a couple of times when it came to the men I was “entangled” with.
I wish I had a different story.
I wish I had a story of doing everything right. Of somehow escaping the grasps of the enemy and being so great in this area.
But instead I have a different one.
A one of trying to run out of stronghold after stronghold and I seemed to hit obstacle after obstacle. I did not quite know what was wrong in this area.
I couldnt escape.
Ive been through some things I am still healing over because I believe that God does all things.
I have seen God work so much in me since I tried with my hurt little heart to open it up a centimeter and then another centemeter and then close it up again in absolute terror as he showed me that I was greater in this area than I thought I was.
Because sometimes he shows you who you are before you have grasped who you are and it just takes a while to process that little me who had so many problems and had no hope but who kept saying if I get out of this then Im going to put a dent in the devils kingdom.
Then I would say, This is going to be my strongest area. That was very ambitious to say while you are a mess.
But I still believe and I am still walking hoping to get free of the demons that I have been struggling with for so long.
And when I do I hope to take you along with me.
This is a blessed journey and this is my journey.