The other day I was praying about something. I was very confused within my self about some things happening in my life. I wanted to move forward in a direction that I did not think God wanted me to go but I couldn’t for the life of me really understand why. It looked like way better than what the other alternative was.
I was struggling within myself as many people do. I got to a place where I felt impressed to read the garden of Gethsemane. This is the place that Jesus was praying that God would PLEASE take this cup from him although he knew within himself that the fathers will MUST be fulfilled.
Many people once they get to the place where it hurts, where there own will has to be laid down, they run. They dont want to have to do anything that doesnt feel great. And many times we are taught that God would never want us to do anything that makes us feel uncomfortable, confused, fearful, doubtful, etc.
But the truth is whatever Gods will is, that is what must be surrendered to. So I sat there and had my garden of Gethsemane moment and I said, your will. By faith, I am moving forward into your will knowing that you will catch me if I am wrong and you will even reward me if I was hearing wrong because you love me and see my heart.
And my heart is to follow you. My heart is to do what you desire. So here are all my desires for you to do with them what you want. Lord, have your way.
And in this garden, my own will my own desires are dying to be resurrected with the power to do only your will. It is here when its the end of me, and the beginning of YOU.
