It was not too long ago when Jesus tapped me on the shoulder during my prayer time and he let me know that I had gotten used to taking less than in my love life and he wanted me to get used to the best.
When he said this I thought about the marriage I had where I stayed even though my then husband was so disloyal to me. I thought I had to stay because I didnt know how God felt about divorce.
I took a lot of what I consider abuse. I thought about my birth father and the things he did that hurt me emotionally. How he left my mother. How he lied and did not apologize.
I thought about all that my heart had endured and how I had learned to somehow survive even when I was limping on one kinda working leg.
And I lifted my hands and I said, God i dont even know how to do anything but take less than. At that time, I was dating a guy who knew too much about how to make any kinda drug you can name especially crack. He said he did not sell drugs anymore but some of his actions led me to believe it may not completely be over. I wasnt exactly in a situationship that could ever become something good.
But since, he said that I must have felt that if God is in it then I can learn to take more than. So I lifted my hands and said Lord if this is what you are saying then I need you to help me to be able to even accept the best.
That was an encounter that helped me to get on a better road and to let go of the sin in my life.
I asked God what I needed to do and I felt like the first step is just to start praying over my love life.
So there I was on the floor. I started thinking about each guy I had encountered and I prayed about it. I prayed about everything in my past.
The healing that has come over my love life since that moment has been startling. There is someone who I could not get over, that I now dont think about.
It lets me know God is good at it all. He can take any burden, remove it and replace it with his divine will.
So trust him. Let him have your heart.
He is the one who really loves you.
In him is perfect love.
