I am going to be very transparent right now. Im not really sure if Im supposed to be or not but it seems like the season that I help those who feel hopeless.
We all want to find love and be loved in our lives. And those who say they dont, actually deep down really do. They have just been so rejected, they have lost hope that it could ever happen to them.
When I look at my love life before I gave it over to Jesus, I see a struggle bus. It was plain difficult.
Yes, I was always in church but I didnt always listen to his promptings. I was confused because people in the church acted like you were too spiritual if you brought God into it and yet he is supposed to be everything.
I was also a very prophetic person, I could see into the future and it often didnt allow me to take things day by day slowly building great habits into my love life.
Some things take a lot of time, and we dont want it to take time. We dont want to take time to develop. We want to be one of the ones that God saves from the very beginning and does an absolute miracle with hardly no effort on our own. And that does happen to some people and I am so thankful for those stories.
But some of us took the long way around and really settled down with Jesus and allowed him to do what you believed he was wanting to do in your life.
So the struggle bus ended up being the bus that you learned Jesus the most on. You learned that he was there during the happy times and when you were balling your eyes out from the heartbreaks, he was there, too. Although you had no idea that he was listening so very intently to your prayers, for the hurt convinced you that surely the God of the Universe did not ever hear your cry.
Lo and behold you woke up one day and realize he heard you. You are sitting here with your husband and child and you cant help but to look back and cry because you realize Lord here and there and there—you were there. You were listening. You knew exactly where I was and even then you were holding your hand.
And you realize that they greatest love story you ever had was not the husband and child that he gave you.
It was literally the one that got you through all of it. It was him- JESUS!
