There was a time I went into prayer specifically with the focus of destroying the things that had destroyed me for so long. I printed out this quote on our big commercial printer at work, ran by the Dollar General to pick up a flimsy dollar frame, and hung it up on my “quote wall.” I wanted to look at it everyday and make it a focus.
Frankly, I was tired of finding myself around the same people, places and things. I was tired of the same chain of events. It got to the place that I knew how things were going to turn out. I was in a cycle and I couldn’t get out.
I determined the enemies of my life would be defeated once and for all. I was a strong woman and nothing was going to defeat this gal.
As I was sitting down on my bedroom floor, bible out, candles lit, I breathed this prayer, “Lord, destroy what is destroying me..” It was as if immediately he whispered to my heart, “..But then I’d have to destroy you..” I could feel his love as he said it.
On that floor sitting Indian style with my bible out, I realized the only thing standing between me and a better life, was me. I thought I had huge giants, when they were nothing compared to the power I had to overcome. I had allowed people, places, and things to devour my God-given power.
He loved me enough not to tear the things I clenched so tightly from me, knowing he would likely kill my spirit. He had to gently nudge me step by step to get me to surrender the things I thought were important and start teaching me little by little as I surrendered, how to live.
As I sat there on my bedroom carpet, I realized something. Looking back, every time I took a wrong turn, I looked next to me and saw him there. The times when I finally started walking towards him, he lovingly opened his arms as if he had been waiting all along. One thing I am sure, he never left me.
I don’t know what you are going through today, but I want you to know one thing. The answer lies in him and because of that you have all you need. There really is no circumstance too hard for him or too hard for you to come out a winner.
