There was a time when I was going through something and I kept asking God, What should I do? He kept giving me the same scripture over and over. I mean not only during prayer time, but people I talked to would randomly look at me and tell me they felt to tell me to Be Still and Know that I am God.  I really wanted to roll my eyes every time but out of respect I tried to keep those eyes still.

The scripture kind of boggled my mind because to me that scripture meant not doing anything. Just sitting there and waiting on whatever to happen. To me it symbolized a loss of control and didn’t symbolize any kind of answer. Just nothingness.

This week I sat on my couch in wonder at just how much God has been blessing me. Things I have prayed about for years are happening. And honestly, I always knew where I would one day go, but it took a long time for things to start to manifest little by little like I’ve been seeing in my life lately. Some huge things have taken place, maybe not huge to others but huge to me because I know where I came from.

But, the last few weeks I allowed fear to cross my mind that maybe I would end up going back to where I was. Maybe I wasn’t capable of handling where he is showing me that I will go.

Familiar crossroads where I could choose going back or going forward was presented to me. It seemed to be a mental battle that I was not good enough and I almost felt safer where I used to be. I was crossing a line with one foot in my old life and one in my new one. The choice was up to me to “become” in this new role.

I knew to go forward I would have to give up some things. I would have to give up the fear that I would end up going backwards and believe that I can move forward. I would have to give up the residue of my old life, old mentality, and old ways of acting due to fear. The not stepping out because I was afraid of who would hurt me, had to go. And a new me, the real me had to stand forward. I would have to give up the familiar baggage that I carried, lay it down, and never pick it up again.

I had to give up who I thought I was to believe that I am a better version of myself. I had to give up low self esteem to step into a realm that required boldness. I had to give up even thinking about my old life and instead dwell on the new life he promised me.

As I was praying the other night, I asked God why all the sudden after being so happy was I so scared right now. Why am I allowing what other people think about me worry me now?

I felt that familiar voice tell me to Let Go. I began to pray that he would help me and I started to surrender any old residue of my old life, any old residue of how I thought or felt to him.

I opened my bible and that scripture Be Still and Know that I am God that I hadn’t looked at in a long time, came alive in those pages. I looked down at the commentary. It said Be Still can also be translated to mean Let Go in the Hebrew and all the sudden I knew he was standing there allowing me to let go and letting me instead walk in a new arena.

Sometimes being still and waiting on him is also a chance to prepare and let go of an old life that no longer serves a new purpose. It may be surrendering who you believe you were to embrace who you really are. It may be leaving the future completely up to him while you do the necessary work on you.

I wonder if there is anything that you need to let go of today? Is there someone that hurt you, and you need to let go and allow God to take care of them instead of carrying the hurt with you along your path.

Whatever it is, let go and see God work. Give up the control. Your life may not be what you wanted to be, but there is no reason why the next blessing or miracle can’t be better than anything you ever thought it could be. And even if it’s not, you can live in peace in his arms.

Take a moment to lay down the things that Satan would love for you to hang on to because with that baggage you can never be all that he has planned for you to become.