Right now, I am dealing with a part of my life that has seen a lot of devastation. Even though I am happy in my life, this place feels numb and not very faith-filled. In my mind, there is no possible way for God to shine through this. The mistakes I have made in this area are too much. The amount of times I did the opposite of what he wanted me to do just proves how little I deserve his grace to come in and save me.

But the thing that makes me fall in love with God so much is the fact that he doesn’t hold any of that against me. My life has proved that when I am faced with all those negative feelings, that they are not how he feels about me. He feels strongly that he wants me to have the best life there is. He doesn’t worry about keeping score. He is not worried about whether I am giving him just as much as he gives me. These past couple of years have taught me the true grace of God, that I could literally never out-give him even if I tried. He is too loving for that. 1 John 4:8.